Digging things up in therapy

Jurassic Park: Dr. Grant leans in close and scares the shit out of the smartass kid at the dig site who thinks velociraptor looks like a turkey.
“Now you may think Fear of Abandonment sounds like a little baby problem that’s easy to get over. Until it slashes at you here. Or here. Or maybe here, where it makes you retreat from your existing friends into isolation.”

The best way to describe last few weeks of meetings with my therapist is something like this: I feel like a paleontologist who keeps finding interesting fossils, but none of them fit together.

“This one is a leg bone, but it doesn’t belong with any of these feet, and the feet don’t belong with this neck. And there’s just a pile of skulls over there and none of them make any sense.”

I’m doing the work, but the work’s not cohering into anything clear at this point.

And I just keep digging, and hoping I can start making some connections soon.