Mistakenly baking for the judges

Paul Hollywood gives a contestant's explanation side-eye.
Nobody wants to see this face while they’re talking about what they’re doing.

My kids get picky about food at dinnertime. It’s gotten to the point where I’ve hit a slump with a rotation of the few things that they normally will eat, or just grabbing some carry out/dining out.

When Dena tested positive for COVID right before Christmas, I went into meal planning mode. Instead of going with the same old options, I went for things that would help Dena feel better, and things that I felt I could cook well.

The shocking thing? The true Christmas miracle? The kids liked almost all of it.

Instead of trying to adjust things for them or make concessions and tweak recipes, I just did things to spec.

On cooking shows, one thing that often gets a ding from the judges is when somebody tones down their flavors or their spices. They worry the judges can’t handle what they like, and the judges almost always ask them why they did that.

Maybe the error I’ve been making is trying to guess what the kids want instead of just offering up something Dena and I want and hoping our enthusiasm is contagious.

Maybe there’s a broader lesson here about creative work and trying to second guess your audience instead of being true to your flavors.

I’ll think on that. But mostly I’m glad I had a few days of enjoying cooking again, and want to see if I can keep that going.

Treat yourself as your majority shareholder

Austin Kleon discussed Bo Burnham’s quote about social media companies “coming for every second of your life” by saying:

One reason I feel so lucky to be an independent writer with a great audience: I don’t answer to any shareholders but readers. I don’t have to grow my business if I don’t want to. I can do my thing the way I want to do it for the people who want it.

Austin Kleon, They’re coming for every second of your life

I’ve posted a lot less to social media lately. I’ve already talked about some of the why.

I keep coming back to the question: Who could profit from me making something for a platform?

I may not have the audience of a lot of the people I read or watch online, but I still spend time thinking about things to make and post and where I should do it.

I want that time to be spent on things that return value to me.

When I wrote How Up Makes You Cry, it was for me. I wanted something that would flex my film school muscles, and I needed a project to keep my mind off the fact that I was still unemployed while waiting for a new teaching contract to start. I was living in a moment where I couldn’t see the connection between the life I wanted and the life I was living. I turned to four minutes of film that dealt with that same disconnect and poured my heart into it.

Seeing that project through to the end was valuable to me. Finding out that other people enjoyed reading it was another boost to my mood.

And it started the conversation that lead me to my current job, which has allowed me to step away from teaching at a time I needed to.

So I’m pro-posting stuff online. I’m pro-making things.

But where and how matters. Owning your space is important, even if there aren’t the easily displayed metrics of shares and likes.

It’s easier to be found when you’re not sharing somewhere that only prioritizes the last thing you posted.

Looking back at my stats for this year, most of my popular posts are from one or two years ago. Evergreen content that I shared and left up to be found.

I’m happy with that. I’d rather share something that might still be of value to some people years from now than spend time trying to game an algorithm to make something that’s wildly popular for a day.

A deeper appreciation for Home Alone

On Thanksgiving we introduced Button to Home Alone. He loved it. Being three, that meant it was the first thing he wanted to watch again the next day. And the next. And the… you see where I’m going.

Look, it holds up. Solid holiday viewing.

But that much exposure to the movie in a few days made me notice some things.

Home Alone. Kevin sits on his sled at the top of the stairs.
“I have made a terrible mistake.”

The genius setup for the cartoon violence

There are three key moments that prime the audience to accept that the brutal assaults on Harry and Marv won’t actually kill them.

  1. Kevin sleds down the stairs into the front yard; survives.
  2. Kevin gets up from under the collapsed shelves in Buzz’s room; shakes it off without a scratch.
  3. Kevin slides across the ice like a frictionless penguin when evading a police officer.

The movie aside from these scenes tends toward the realistic. It’s not completely of our world, but these three scenes show us some elasticity in the rules about momentum and impact.

If we didn’t see Kevin get up from under that pile of shelves, we wouldn’t believe that a burglar could get back up from an iron to a face, or slamming into a brick wall, etc. etc.

Kevin's family glares at him after the pizza incident.
Seriously, does anyone want to see any of these characters ever again?

Kevin’s family is uniquely terrible

Watch the first act of Home Alone on its own. Now ask yourself if you think any of these people should be allowed around Kevin ever again.

The movie pushes their mean-spirited treatment of Kevin far enough to make it believable that he would wish they would disappear. His sense of joy when they’re gone feels reasonable.

So why would we want to see them come back?

TFW you will sell your soul to the Devil, even if it means traveling on Spirit.

Kevin’s mom takes the long way home for a reason

So it’s a funny little brick joke that the rest of Kevin’s family shows up just after Mom, who had to beg, barter, and hitchhike to get home to Kevin. But it also highlights why it was so important for her to do so.

Seeing Kevin’s mom make the effort to get home as fast as possible is what matters. She questions her relationship to Kevin and how she could have behaved in such a way that would end up thoughtlessly abandoning him at home.

She does the work to make her return feel important.

And in Kevin’s reaction to her return, he can see she’s done something big for him. Their connection matters.

But then everybody else comes home…

Kevin's family in Home Alone 2 crammed into a van.
The existence of a sequel proves they learned nothing from this.

The rest of Kevin’s family still kind of sucks

They did no work. They just waited it out until the easiest option to get home was available. They didn’t do anything to keep in contact with Kevin’s mom (that we know of) or provide her with any support whatsoever.

They were hanging out with Uncle Frank, eating shrimp, and having their vacation.


And they take all of ten seconds to acknowledge that Kevin’s not dead and it’s neat that he bought milk before moving on back to their rooms.

Yes, the button line about Buzz realizing his room is still wrecked is funny, but it also undercuts the sense we should have that Kevin’s in a better place with his family than in the beginning of the movie.

Cue my disappointment that we never got Home Alone 3: Emancipation in Chicago.

Considering who benefits from my attention

“Wondering how to decide what to read? Here’s a simple but effective heuristic to cut down the choices significantly. Ask yourself one question: Does this writer make bank when we hate one another? And if the answer is yes, don’t read that writer.”

Alan Jacobs, “a friendly reminder”

Jacobs makes a good, high-altitude argument. If the goal is to keep you engaged by making you angry, giving it your attention doesn’t benefit you.

It’s not that anger can’t be a useful motivating tool. But anger as the end goal isn’t worth pursuing.

I came back to this post after all the changes with Twitter’s new main character. Maybe he’s the Final Boss, but that’s not clear yet. Anecdotally I’ve noticed a lot more garbage in trending topics that make it less useful, and a lot of time spent by people trying to dunk on the Chief Twit (whether or not they name him in their post).

I don’t need an app whose primary purpose is to tell me what dumb thing Elon Musk said or did today.

But it’s not just about Twitter, either:

Betchik is one of TikTok’s premiere rage-bait chefs: influencers who make videos of gruesome and often disgusting recipes, which they then consume in front of a camera. Most creators in the space claim to be driven by curiosity rather than fame, but their reliance on outrage to fuel their online presence is undeniable. On TikTok and other platforms, algorithms favor engagement — and nothing inspired engagement quite as reliably as disgust. 

Jessica Lucas, Why the worst recipes imaginable are blowing up on TikTok

It used to feel harder to pull myself away from some of this stuff. I’m not sure what’s changed. Maybe there’s just a tipping point. When the problems with an app or a type of content outweigh any potential benefits.

Sure, I can get sucked down a rabbit hole like anybody else. But a thing that can help to pull me out is asking, “Are they just trying to annoy me? Are they just playing a game to get me angry so their metrics look good?”

I don’t want to be a little rage button that can be pushed to juice somebody’s numbers.

World Cup captains give up on show of support for LGBTQ+ rights

I’m a fan of Ted Lasso. One of my favorite moments in the series happens in the locker room, shortly after Sam Obisanya tapes over the sponsor’s name on his kit—a protest against the pollution they’ve caused in Nigeria. After explaining his actions to the rest of the team and saying he doesn’t expect anyone who doesn’t have ties to Nigeria to join them, Jamie Tartt asks for the tape.

“Gotta wear the same kit,” is all Jamie says, but it sets in motion the entire team taking a stand behind Sam.

Someone with no direct connection to the outrage decides to step up and support the person taking the risk of speaking out against an injustice.

Sure, it’s just a tv show. It’s aspirational more than reflective of the realities of the relationship between politics, money, and sports.

But we need aspirational stories in part to help us recognize cowardice and expect more of others.

Captains from several European teams intended to wear armbands in support of LGBTQ+ rights at the World Cup in Qatar. Until they realized there might be “sporting consequences.”

The governing bodies – England, Wales, Belgium, Denmark, Germany, the Netherlands and Switzerland – said they had written to Fifa in September informing them about the OneLove armband but not received a response.

“Fifa has been very clear that it will impose sporting sanctions if our captains wear the armbands on the field of play,” the statement added.

“We were prepared to pay fines that would normally apply to breaches of kit regulations and had a strong commitment to wearing the armband.

“However, we cannot put our players in the situation where they might be booked, or even forced to leave the field of play.”

World Cup 2022: England, Wales & other European nations will not wear OneLove armbands

Faced with the possibility that they might face a suspension of their ability to play in the World Cup, everyone agreed to throw in the towel on what was a mainly symbolic and insufficient gesture, but at least it was an attempt.

For comparison, here’s what LGBTQ+ people living or traveling in Qatar face in a nation that criminalizes their existence:

According to [Human Rights Watch], Qatar’s security forces have arrested people in public based on their gender expression, unlawfully searched their phones and mandated that detained transgender women had to attend conversion therapy sessions as a condition of their release.

Same-sex “sexual conduct” between men is illegal in Qatar, although there is no outright ban on same-sex relationships between women, according to a U.S. State Department report from 2021. Men 16 years of age and older who engage in sexual conduct can be punished by up to seven years in prison, the State Department said. 

Weeks away from World Cup, human rights group says host Qatar continues to mistreat LGBTQ people

But this isn’t what FIFA wants you to think about, and it’s something the players aren’t going to get you to focus on, either. FIFA President Gianni Infantino has provided a flood of soundbites trying to minimize legitimate questions and concerns about the conditions of this World Cup:

“We all have difficult lives,” Infantino said, though he chose not to discuss whether all of those difficulties are equal or even, really, comparable. All any of us craves, he said, is the chance to forget those worries for a while, to have some time “when we don’t have to think about this,” but can instead “concentrate on something we love, and that thing is football.”

It is hard to think of a more fitting summary for this World Cup, for the World Cup in general, for the way FIFA sees the world. Life is hard, and complicated, and unhappy. But try not to talk about it, or ask any questions about it, or even think about it all. Better, far better, not to resist, but instead to sit back and allow it wash over you and through you, an opiate against the pain.

Welcome to the Joy-Free World Cup

People with a platform may choose how to use it. They’re under no obligation to anyone else unless they see it that way.

But people with a platform who willingly walk away from showing support, empathy, and love for others; who chuck them aside because they’ve bought in to the notion that the game comes first and being a human comes second…

It’s disappointing.

And we know what it looks like when people in their position choose to take a risk in order to do better and be better.